202.5

Spouse and I started a diet at the same time. I lost 2.5 pounds, he lost 7.5. Fucker.

205

It's been a bad month. I ate donuts.

202

It was 201.5 but I somehow gained a half pound after pooping.

201.5

That is all.

203.5

That is all.

210

That is all

Vacation was great!

I didn't exercise at all! I did run around the back garden, chasing and being chased by the child, plus did some painting and a bit of wallpapering, but no formal exercise. I probably ate healthier as I was focussing on making sure the kid had good meals and sure enough didn't gain any weight.

I've been back at work a week and a half now and this week back on the office exercise routine. I feel great! I feel like I'm starting to strengthen muscle and I have so much more energy. Trying to be more mindful about food (although as I type I'm eating chocolat Spouse brought back from England) but since we're a bit tight on money right now that helps me to cook healthier things from the pantry.

188

I weighed myself many, many times this morning as I really didn't believe it. But yes, I'm under 190. It may not stay, but I'm optimistic.

Managed one day of Jack over the weekend. Child played along for a couple of the exercises, but was mostly ignoring me. The weather looks like it will be quite clement while I'm on staycation, so I anticipate being able to keep up with the routine. I should be able to do five days a week as well, if not more.

Yesterday I sat down with a diet book and examined their sample menus. It looks like breakfast has a fruit (or juice), a meat, (sometimes eggs instead or in addition) and a bread, usually muffin. Lunch is what I would consider a sandwich filling - chicken salad, egg, meat - although not usually as a sandwich, plus fruit, bread and milk. Dinner is meat, potato, cooked veg and salad. All very sensible, although the breakfast does look like more than I usually eat (and the lunch a lot less.) I think I can manage those while we're home. And if I can get some chairs in, we may even start using the kitchen or dining room tables for meals! How civilized!

Week 2 (or 500-and-something)

I didn't do any regimented exercises over the three-day weekend but my weight is still the same (a post-poo 190.5) and Spouse says my thighs seem smaller. So that's nice.

Started Day two of Jack as my Week 2 regime. It's got floor exercises in it, which might suck at home on the (toddler-encrusted) hardwood, but is only mildly gross on my office floor. At least I know my office is vacuumed daily! He's still pretty talky so I find myself marching, or even today jogging(!) in place while he prattles on just to make it real exercise for the full 20 minutes. As the weeks get harder, that might not be needed, but for now it works for me.

I can't go on like this

Today my weight was 190.5 lbs. It's been in that area for almost two years now. It's just not healthy for me.

That said, I do NOT want my daughter to ever see me diet or fret about my weight. I would rather she see me make and eat real food and be generally active and have that be normal. She already gets to see her dad as an active bicyclist and we now have a vegetable garden (although that's more of a "proof of concept" this year) in addition to farmer's market and other fresh food coming in the house.

But I need to do something about my weight.

The short-term I'm trying, which I have tried before (but this time I mean it, I swear!) is to do some exercising at work during my lunch. I'm day one into a twelve-week regime. I hope I can keep it up. My goal is to be 180 lbs by daughter's 2nd birthday in October. A modest goal.

Post-baby body

I only gained 20 pounds during pregnancy, and lost it all almost imediately. Unfortunately, I was at 198lbs when I got pregnant so I was starting obese. One thing you don't often hear in the talk of losing baby weight is the number pregnancy does on your shape generally. As fat as I am, I was never this doughy until having a child. I can tuck it in, compress it and otherwise try to hide it behind clothes, but that dough is still there, lurking. Spouse looked at me last night and asked if I was "cooking another one in there." He is never having sex again.

Goal 1 - Update

Current weight: 190.5 lbs Goal: 190 lbs maintained for one week Reward: New stockings Very close. Need to actually change diet and exercise for things to happen. Been busy with move.

190.5

BREAKFAST
tea
egg and cheese sandwich

LUNCH
leftover homemade lasagna

190

BREAKFAST
tea
toast

SNACK
Tea and biscuits

LUNCH
convenience food, microwaved frozen lasagna

DINNER
Proper home-made lasagna (albeit with jarred sauce)
wine

189.5 - Weigh-in Day

BREAKFAST
grapefruit
tea
egg and cheese on croissant

LUNCH
BBQ tofu
Quinoa
broccoli
pumpkin pie (damn you pie!)
fizzy water

188.5

BREAKFAST
scrambled egg with spinach
toast
tea
water

188.5

BREAKFAST
Pink grapefruit (can one even buy white grapefruit anymore?)
Tea
scrambled egg with spinach
toast

LUNCH
Salad of veggies with hard boiled eggs
tea
biscuits (2)

DINNER
"chicken" pot pie
rum and diet cola

191.5

I was 186.5 on Saturday. Let's pretend it's Saturday today.

BREAKFAST
Quorn sandwich (1 slice of bread)
tea

LUNCH
Another sandwich (2 slices of bread)
water
Nice cup of tea and a biscuit


Okay, two biscuits

DINNER
Another Quorn sandwich (with spinach in it this time)
cider

188

BREAKFAST
tea
toast with honey

187.5

Sick again. Throat is sore, probably from the acid reflux (or whatever you want to call it) over the weekend.

toast with honey
tea
veggie calzone
water with bitters
plain water
ice cream